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There comes a point when there is too much to do and not enough time. Now, I'm a veteran of the Washington, DC NGO curcuit, and, as Cara Sposa points out quite frequently, it's the bad side of that equation I've picked up as habits. So I tend to stay up late to get things done, ignore family and friends for work, get caught in an exhaustion-causes self-hypercriticism-causes anxiety-causes exhaustion spiral over work (which, for all the extra effort, actually makes the quality of the work WORSE instead of better).

Got some important things done, though in the past two days. Caught up on for-pay work that I wasn't supposed to be doing but kind of proved necessary in the end, put the final-draft changes into a website that collects membership dues and allows votes for a new genre fiction award (I'll put something up on this next Friday or Saturday when it's generally OK for public consumption), broke my 8-bogo-mile barrier on my cardio, and threw together a barbecue dual-birthday celebration using our CSA and localfood stuff (as well as first tasting of the new kimchi). On top of the usual chores. In 35C heat and 85% humidity. Got to see my niece and nephew from TO as well, and had a good time overall. Apparently, they listen to the same music we do, even though they're about 15-20 years younger.

And I allowed some things to slide, as well. I wanted to get an interview by moon_custafer up on Friday, and i COULD have since I got the final copy just past 5PM, if I'd not decided to spend time with Cara Sposa, or if I'd dropped the website launch, or spent less time on submitting and polishing my own work, or working on year-end accounting...

And that's just it. I've been running out on a wave of things that have piled up for weeks now, kind of like a surfer keeping just one inch ahead of the crest. And then... it all crashes over and you're left floundering.

But I have learned SOMETHING in the years of doing this destruction-testing of body and relationships. You flounder for a lot less time if you just relax, give up on everything, and get some time off doing something you like that doesn't require anything of you.

So, I've been saving up The Fifth Head of Cerberus for years. And that's what I'm going to do this afternoon. Lunch and dinner are leftovers. The yardwork (including the likely-to-be-hilarious upcoming slapstick episode where Barry learns how to patch a huge spall on a concrete wall) will have to wait. See you all tomorrow. Hopefully with handful_ofdust's review of "Locke and Key" posted.

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moon_custafer
Aug. 5th, 2012 02:55 pm (UTC)
Dude, don't worry about the interview -- it's not like I got it done quickly, either.
barry_king
Aug. 5th, 2012 03:14 pm (UTC)
W
Heh. That's the thing. I'm not. And it's a good feeling. But thanks for saying so!
barry_king
Aug. 5th, 2012 03:15 pm (UTC)
Love the icon, BTW.
asakiyume
Aug. 5th, 2012 04:18 pm (UTC)
I sympathize with this so much. It's all the things I need to do that's keeping me stymied on LJ--though one of the things was posting the Lauriat review, so that's something--but of course, I went and posted it on the weekend, when no one's around, so I kind of have to leave it up untrammeled until Monday, blah blah blah.

You flounder for a lot less time if you just relax, give up on everything, and get some time off doing something you like that doesn't require anything of you.

... If I could manage that more often. It's just that even my pleasures begin to seem like obligations. Shit's messed up!

Anyway, your post reminds me that there are a couple of handful_ofdust's reviews that I want to catch up on. Also, that I need to look carefully at your beautiful kimchee post, which I've bookmarked, and see about shrinking it to a test-batch size, and then getting the supplies.
barry_king
Aug. 6th, 2012 11:52 am (UTC)
I'm enjoying the interviews, and I like the direction she's going with them. Puttin' that encyclopaedia in her head to work!
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